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You probably won't really understand what its about, so I'll explain.

I'm currently dating someone, and I like him.. but I'm still in love with my ex,

who my cousin is ALMOST in a relationship with. She knows I still have feelings for him, but not how much it'd kill me for them to be together.

And I'm having issues with my boyfriend... I like him, but he's taking this too fast and I'm not ready for a serious relationship, and I'm starting to question my feelings about him. He feels more like a best friend than a boyfriend. But he keeps telling me how he has family problems and is always depressed, but since we've been dating, he's getting happy again and things are perfect. So I don't know what to do! I had been thinking of telling him it wasnt working out (our relationship is also long distance) but it'd break his heart, and I'm afraid he'll do something stupid .... but anyways, sorry for ranting. Heres the rough draft for the poem.

It's true what they say, how you two would make the most beautiful couple that this world have ever seen

But when I see him, all I think about is what we were, and what we could have been

I had my chance, and I blew everything

I wasn't good enough, I lost my everything

It seemed like it lasted forever, but at the same time, it went by too slow

And now, you need to tell me the truth, I gotta know

 

If I told you I was still in love with him, that I'll never be able to let go

If I told you that when you talk about him, I put on a fake smile, just to show

To show that I'm perfectly fine, that I don't care

That I don't wish he was here instead of there

Would you back away, would you understand

That this love that I'm feeling wasn't planned

 

I know that I'm no longer so alone, but my heart must be as cold as stone

I can't get myself to love him, I don't feel happy, is that so bad?

How can things get better when all I want is what I had?

But I guess it's your turn now, and I must move on

Yet maybe, just maybe, I'm not that strong

 

Little by little, I fall into this mess I've made

If I break his heart now, he'll feel lonesome, he'll be afraid

Time just keeps passing us by, his love; it grows with every last goodbye

But I keep falling, drowning, not knowing what to do

 

So, I'm asking you, what will you do?

Will you go after him, the only one I've ever loved?

After all the things we've been through?

It hurts to think of you in his arms, it actually kills me

But there's nothing I can do, nothing I can say,

I just wish for him the happiness he deserves, and for his skies to turn a brighter grey

 

Dearest friend of mine, our blood runs the same

And when it comes to his heart, no one can claim

But look into my eyes, and see how I long for his love

That he's the one I've been dreaming of

And maybe you'll finally realize, finally know the truth

Can you handle it, will it break your heart?

Because if so, then let us be torn apart

 

I love him so much

He's what makes my world go round

And even though we don't talk now,

my heart speaks to him without a sound

I'll wait forever, my heart resting on a shelf

So please don't take him from me,

or I might just die myself.

[SIZE=9pt]That's reaaallll nice. [/SIZE]