x.//StoryTeller//.x
Well-known member
I miss you dearly
I think of you daily
And I so wish I could see
Your smiling face
And laugh with you over the silliest things
But I can't help but forget
That you were never real
My "best friend"
Was nothing but a façade
A petty mind game
And "You"
Was manipulative
"You"
Was a magician
Dangling flecks of light in empty shrouded darkness
"You" was my abuser all along
And I wish I could go back
To hearing your sleepy voice at 3 am
Talking about your cats for hours on end
Playing truth or dare until the sun was up on your side of the country
Watching movies (and pulling me into even more things to love)
And having tearful heart to hearts
But I know that none of those laughs and tears were genuine
Because the next day I would be greeted to a text
Saying how I never talk to you
And how I'm bringing you down and exhausting you
While I'm exhausted trying to remind you that I am a very busy person
And I physically cannot talk to you every second
That I'm "just like everyone else"
Even though I have done everything I possibly can to not be like them
And I feel so guilty
That I'm not good enough for you
And if I'm not good enough
Then I'm breaking your heart
Dear ex best friend,
A year later, I still miss you every day.
Dear "You",
A year later, I'm still hurting every day.
I think of you daily
And I so wish I could see
Your smiling face
And laugh with you over the silliest things
But I can't help but forget
That you were never real
My "best friend"
Was nothing but a façade
A petty mind game
And "You"
Was manipulative
"You"
Was a magician
Dangling flecks of light in empty shrouded darkness
"You" was my abuser all along
And I wish I could go back
To hearing your sleepy voice at 3 am
Talking about your cats for hours on end
Playing truth or dare until the sun was up on your side of the country
Watching movies (and pulling me into even more things to love)
And having tearful heart to hearts
But I know that none of those laughs and tears were genuine
Because the next day I would be greeted to a text
Saying how I never talk to you
And how I'm bringing you down and exhausting you
While I'm exhausted trying to remind you that I am a very busy person
And I physically cannot talk to you every second
That I'm "just like everyone else"
Even though I have done everything I possibly can to not be like them
And I feel so guilty
That I'm not good enough for you
And if I'm not good enough
Then I'm breaking your heart
Dear ex best friend,
A year later, I still miss you every day.
Dear "You",
A year later, I'm still hurting every day.