I don't know what to believe. Besides, there are 100's of religions that aren't about God and Jesus. I don't know what I am. Just because YOU believe doesn't mean everybody does. Nobody has proof of heaven or hell, nobody has proof of a Second Life. Nobody has proof of anything that happens after you die. Nobody knows until they die.
You don't have to see to believe - aren't you a Christian? I feel VERY sorry for you! O.O