GirlzRule
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My situation is a little complicated, I'll do my best to explain without confusing you guys.
I'm thirteen years old. I've never had a boyfriend though I've gotten pretty close. I knew a boy named Justin ever since third grade (going into eighth now). I was so close to asking him out last year (seventh grade). But he transferred schools, and there's a likely chance I'll never see him again.
Thing was, I wasn't just crushing on him, he was also one of my best friends. It was me, Lydia (bestie since 1st grade), Kayla (bestie since 6th), and him. So naturally, like a drama queen, I was torn up. Because he hadn't told me he was going to leave. We'd been friends for five years. I thought he thought of me as a friend. He certainly acted like it. He'd talk to me in class and joke around and stuff. The same sort of way I'd joke around with Lydia.
He'd always stick up for me when this derfwad (dumb name, I know, but this is a family site and we're not allowed to swear) named Brice would harass me and call me a hermaphrodite and stuff. And in sixth grade I realized why I liked being around him so much. I liked him.
And when he was pulled out of my life without warning, I just fell apart. He wasn't just my crush, he was one of my BESTIES. And then I started crawling around flirting with any guy I could get close to.
So I went through a dozen or so half-crushes that lasted about a week or two each. One including a kid a year younger than me. Anyway, I was pretty much a pathetic desperate slut.
And then me and Lydia (Kayla started hating on us right about the time Justin left, so she could be in the popular crowd, so it was just me and Lydia at this point) started hanging out with these two guys, Spencer and Zac. They were best friends like me and Lydia.
They weren't our friends. It wasn't anywhere near as good as when I had Kayla and Justin. The only reason they hung out with us was they were fighting (friend-fighting) over Lydia. Lydia liked Zac. And Zac liked Lydia. And I liked Zac.
When the school year ended, Lydia started dating Zac. I didn't want to break them up. I didn't want to interfere with my bestie's happiness. But where ever I go with Lydia, Zac is always trailing behind her, holding her hand and kissing her and stuff when they think I'm not looking.
It sucks to be around them, not only because I like Zac, envy Lydia (who has exactly what I want, a boyfriend who loves her and her first kiss), and basically have to deal with the awkwardness of being a third wheel, but also because I'm reminded of what I might have had if I'd made my move when Justin was around.
And oh yeah, Matthew sends me Facebook messages all the time like "How are you doing?" "What's up?" "What's your fave flavor of ice cream?" and stuff.
Advice? Anyone?
I'm thirteen years old. I've never had a boyfriend though I've gotten pretty close. I knew a boy named Justin ever since third grade (going into eighth now). I was so close to asking him out last year (seventh grade). But he transferred schools, and there's a likely chance I'll never see him again.
Thing was, I wasn't just crushing on him, he was also one of my best friends. It was me, Lydia (bestie since 1st grade), Kayla (bestie since 6th), and him. So naturally, like a drama queen, I was torn up. Because he hadn't told me he was going to leave. We'd been friends for five years. I thought he thought of me as a friend. He certainly acted like it. He'd talk to me in class and joke around and stuff. The same sort of way I'd joke around with Lydia.
He'd always stick up for me when this derfwad (dumb name, I know, but this is a family site and we're not allowed to swear) named Brice would harass me and call me a hermaphrodite and stuff. And in sixth grade I realized why I liked being around him so much. I liked him.
And when he was pulled out of my life without warning, I just fell apart. He wasn't just my crush, he was one of my BESTIES. And then I started crawling around flirting with any guy I could get close to.
So I went through a dozen or so half-crushes that lasted about a week or two each. One including a kid a year younger than me. Anyway, I was pretty much a pathetic desperate slut.
And then me and Lydia (Kayla started hating on us right about the time Justin left, so she could be in the popular crowd, so it was just me and Lydia at this point) started hanging out with these two guys, Spencer and Zac. They were best friends like me and Lydia.
They weren't our friends. It wasn't anywhere near as good as when I had Kayla and Justin. The only reason they hung out with us was they were fighting (friend-fighting) over Lydia. Lydia liked Zac. And Zac liked Lydia. And I liked Zac.
When the school year ended, Lydia started dating Zac. I didn't want to break them up. I didn't want to interfere with my bestie's happiness. But where ever I go with Lydia, Zac is always trailing behind her, holding her hand and kissing her and stuff when they think I'm not looking.
It sucks to be around them, not only because I like Zac, envy Lydia (who has exactly what I want, a boyfriend who loves her and her first kiss), and basically have to deal with the awkwardness of being a third wheel, but also because I'm reminded of what I might have had if I'd made my move when Justin was around.
And oh yeah, Matthew sends me Facebook messages all the time like "How are you doing?" "What's up?" "What's your fave flavor of ice cream?" and stuff.
Advice? Anyone?
