tenniswinner
December 2007 Contest Winner
I've liked this boy in my class for quite a while now. We're such good friends, too. Let's call him J. I really thought I had a chance with him before valentines day. And then he told me his secret; he liked my friend N. I was crushed. =[ But he likes who he likes and I respect that, so I just gave him advice on getting noticed. So the Sunday before Valentines day J asked N out to be his girlfriend. She said no. But then suddenly on Valentines day she says, "I changed my mind" and then they were girlfriend & boyfriend. I felt like my heart was just drilled open and smushed into 100 pieces! Every night before I went to bed I'd fall asleep thinking of him but then again he had N now, not me. So then a couple days later I was trying to move on, but N tells me "I don't really like him, I just feel bad for saying no since he likes me so much..." Oh. If I could just tell J, something could happen here. But being the good friend that I am I just kept my comments to myself. So a few days ago, I couldn't take it anymore. I just let it out to all my friends, that I'm crazy about him. I can't stand J and N holding hands; it's not even real! She doesn't love you J, I DO! =[ Sorry for the overexaggeration, but I seriously need to get myself together. I try so hard and he doesn't even notice me. N said she'll break up with him on April 28th... that's a month away. But then no one will be happy. J will be upset and heartbroken, N will be feeling bad, and then she'll feel so bad she'll have to get back together with him. I CAN'T TAKE THIS DRAMA ANY MORE!! =[
I need help on:
How to move on
What to do
How to react when I see them together
How to open up more when I'm around J (I act all shy and that is NOT me)
Thanks so much.
I need help on:
How to move on
What to do
How to react when I see them together
How to open up more when I'm around J (I act all shy and that is NOT me)
Thanks so much.