temari_sensei_girl
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Well, I don't feel all that safe posting this on the internet, but I have a HUGE confession to make and it's been killing me inside for the past half a year or so. I've known about it for some time and the few people I did tell either made fun of me or called me crazy or patted me on the shoulder and said good luck... well... here goes...
I have to say that... well... how do I say this....
God spoke to me... ME!
and average 14 year old girl, God talkes to ME and you know what he said!
"My dear daughter, I have great plans for you. "
of course I was startled and said, "but God, How do I know that it's you and that it's not some impersination.. um... thing."
he said, "I am, who I am, and you are me daughter. I am your father and love you. You have given your life to me, and now I will put your life to work. I have planed this for you before you where every born."
I was amazed at this point, so I said, "Well, God what is it that you want me to do?"
he said, "I want you to study my word and learn about it's meaning, teaching yourself in it's ways. When you are ready I will send a man to come and he will tell you to leave. You will bring nothing but 1 echange of clothing with you and NOTHING else. I want you then to travel until you find a persan that will give you clothing made of cheap cloth and you will travel with this man all over the world preaching the gosple and the end times. I want you to correct the wrong minds of the people that have forgotten me and and my teachings. Your death will be in a martyre, but fear not, my child, for I have great plans for you in the great kingdom of the new Jeruselum. Your days of travel will be numbered and I will take good care of you. As you teach I will give you abilities, but until then I only give you the gift of knoledge and wisdom to grow and learn of my ways. I have blessed you, my child. I will always be with you.Amen"
after that I thanked him with an Amen and well... he didn't LEAVE me, but he stopped talking. What surprised me most tho, is that he would go through all the trouble to talk to me himself and not send an angel. I've been noticing strange changes since then as well. When I read the Bible it makes more since and I can almost pick out every little detail in what it says. I'm also able to give interesting advise when I ask God for help. Of course it hasn't been easy... at all. I've noticed that Satins tricks have been right on my tail this whole time. You have not idea how scared and exited I am. I'm actually shaking so badly that I can barely type right now.
God has also been giving me so many signs to carry onward. My pastor, Bro. Billy, has started preaching more that ever about us working for God, and I can see in so many ways how this is effecting me. It's super scary and I really need some encouragement.
Please don't flame and say that I'm crazy and just imaging things. I don't do drugs and really, what makes me wonder THE most is WHY he chose me, so don't go saying "He wouldn't choose a TEENAGE GIRL like you!" because I don't know why he chose me either!!!
There are a lot more details, but I think they get a little too personal to post on the internet (as if I hadn't gotten personal enough) but I'll be happy to answer questions if I can.
I have to say that... well... how do I say this....
God spoke to me... ME!
and average 14 year old girl, God talkes to ME and you know what he said!
"My dear daughter, I have great plans for you. "
of course I was startled and said, "but God, How do I know that it's you and that it's not some impersination.. um... thing."
he said, "I am, who I am, and you are me daughter. I am your father and love you. You have given your life to me, and now I will put your life to work. I have planed this for you before you where every born."
I was amazed at this point, so I said, "Well, God what is it that you want me to do?"
he said, "I want you to study my word and learn about it's meaning, teaching yourself in it's ways. When you are ready I will send a man to come and he will tell you to leave. You will bring nothing but 1 echange of clothing with you and NOTHING else. I want you then to travel until you find a persan that will give you clothing made of cheap cloth and you will travel with this man all over the world preaching the gosple and the end times. I want you to correct the wrong minds of the people that have forgotten me and and my teachings. Your death will be in a martyre, but fear not, my child, for I have great plans for you in the great kingdom of the new Jeruselum. Your days of travel will be numbered and I will take good care of you. As you teach I will give you abilities, but until then I only give you the gift of knoledge and wisdom to grow and learn of my ways. I have blessed you, my child. I will always be with you.Amen"
after that I thanked him with an Amen and well... he didn't LEAVE me, but he stopped talking. What surprised me most tho, is that he would go through all the trouble to talk to me himself and not send an angel. I've been noticing strange changes since then as well. When I read the Bible it makes more since and I can almost pick out every little detail in what it says. I'm also able to give interesting advise when I ask God for help. Of course it hasn't been easy... at all. I've noticed that Satins tricks have been right on my tail this whole time. You have not idea how scared and exited I am. I'm actually shaking so badly that I can barely type right now.
God has also been giving me so many signs to carry onward. My pastor, Bro. Billy, has started preaching more that ever about us working for God, and I can see in so many ways how this is effecting me. It's super scary and I really need some encouragement.
Please don't flame and say that I'm crazy and just imaging things. I don't do drugs and really, what makes me wonder THE most is WHY he chose me, so don't go saying "He wouldn't choose a TEENAGE GIRL like you!" because I don't know why he chose me either!!!
There are a lot more details, but I think they get a little too personal to post on the internet (as if I hadn't gotten personal enough) but I'll be happy to answer questions if I can.
Oh well, not everybody is as lucky as you.
