A lot of what you mention is completely normal, actually.I was very.... odd.I didn't have many friends, except for a few others who were into the same things as I was.
Those things included pokemon, digamon, beanie babies, neopets and videogames. I wasn't that much of a tom-boy, though, surprisingly. I failed at most sports.
I spent my days watching T.V, going to the park and forest and park with my dad, and going outside to ride my bike... but that was before I started going to school for the full day.
When I did, I never quite fit in with everyone else. Most of the kids had nice clothes, pretty hair, and clean features.
Me? I had long, dirty blonde messy hair that went in every direction. I never really brushed it. I had crooked, buck-toothed teeth which weren't very nice to look at.
I didn't quite have a good grip on fashion when I was younger, and this was my daily outfit for the most part: • Big fat ugly grey running shoes • Flood jeans • A weird, tiny top with design and a sweater
I would collect stuffed animals, and talk to them and play with them like they were alive. People thought I was weird.
I must have had 1000's of toys/stuffed animals, all of which I loved very much.
I was easy-going, and I loved animals. I would treat them so tenderly.... like they were my life.
Boys were always a part of my life, even though none of them liked me back. I was having crushes since the day I stepped foot inside a school.
I also used to have crushes on cartoon charcters, as crazy as it sounds... I "loved" Sonic, Olden (from Braceface), Augumon (from Digimon), and a few others.
I was also pretty smart growing up; I was an excellent writer, and studied hard at all subjects. This made me a straight A student, and teachers loved me.
I'd make wishes on stars, and pray before I went to sleep for silly tihngs... like my stuffed animals to come alive, or for characters in a T.V show come to my house.
When I was in the fifth grade, I started not to like who I was.... the girls made fun of me, and the guys thought I was an ugly nerd.
So I tried changing. I got a haircut, dyed it blonder, wear headbands and lipgloss.... people still didn't like it. They thought I was trying too hard.
I tried makeup. I would wear red eyeshadow or bright pink, along with pink lipgloss. I thought it looked good, but looking back... it didn't.
In the sixth grade, I began to lose my "nerdy" reputation as I wore my stylish clothes and better makeup. I got another haircut, and got bleach blonde streaks.
Now, in the seventh grade, I'm a totally different person.
I'm interested in boys, dating, makeup, style, dances.... all the fun teenager stuff.
I have ALOT of friends, and I'm starting to get lower marks in school.
I wear really nice makeup, I think now. I've improved.
But I think I've lost who I truly am....
People I knew thought my interests were weird...even though to me, they seemed "normal" enough.A lot of what you mention is completely normal, actually.
Everyone LOVED Pokemon and Digimon, and everybody collected Beanie Babies. My friends and I always pretended our stuffed animals were real. We all wished cartoon characters were real.
You're being too over-critical. That's all normal little-kid stuff you mentioned.
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