I'm 14, gone through 6th 7th and 8th grade with everyone having dirty mouths....ahah, I wouldn't be bothered by anything bad, but I don't think I would read up on that stuff anyway xD I mean, I feel strong emotions toward spirits (Megan makes me laugh, Amanda [a scary solid black shadow that is very aggressive] makes me terrified to the point of tears, I miss Roy so I feel sadness, and the others I don't know their names.) but not like LOVE!! Haha, that would be creeee-pyyyyy
If my grandmother visited me I don't know what I'd do....she spoke Polish only so I wouldn't understand her. My other grandparents live in Russia and I only know enough Russian to understand basic communication, but they're not dead, so.....hehe yeah! Seems like your grandmom was very sweet though. The spirits in my house are very watchful over me....Megan is around 7 or 9 so she's mostly curious and mischievous (she is constantly trying to lure me into my parent's bathroom for a Megan-knows-why reason lol)...Amanda...well I don't know what the HELL her problem is, but she scared the living daylights out of me last time I encountered her when she followed me to my bedroom and knocked on the door even though I was screaming at her to leave me the beep alone (Well I didn't say beep...lol). She's very aggressive and intrusive and at night when she comes into my room I am just seized with terror and all I can do is curl up and shake and occasionally cry if I feel that trapped. Very scary. Megan doesn't scare me, just surprises me....a few weeks ago she hid my watershoes (the ONLY shoes I like to wear in the summer) and today I found them next to the exercise bike in the exercise room where I never go except to play with my starlings. Weird, because she hid them under a box.....go figure, I don't care as long as she doesn't break anything!!
I don't think you'd let anything else in if you called your Grandmom. I was in my room once and decided to call my dead aunt who I had never met, because I felt a connection with her because of her love of horses. I lay down in my bed, relaxed, and called her over, and imagined her next to me. Within a minute I felt her near me and I started talking to her. As long as you don't intentionally think of anything else, you won't call anything else. Also if you say out loud, firmly, "NOTHING is allowed in here except for my GRANDMOTHER....if ANYTHING else comes in here without my EXPRESS PERMISSION, the entity will immediately be forcefully ejected" which is what I say. I think it intimidates the other drifters.
And what you said about feeling "pulled"....well God almighty I feel that all the time! When Megan wants to meet me in the bathroom, I feel a strong pull in my gut in the direction of the bathroom, as though a magnet is in my gut and is being attracted to there. Also my legs almost "turn" themselves toward the bathroom and I feel like I absolutely MUST go there or something bad will happen.
I think it's very sweet that your kitties still hung around their usual haunts ^___^ my cockatiel stayed with my in my home until we sold his cage, which was a very sad day for me....but I'm happy he's moved on. He was the best bird I've ever had though. I don't think any of our other animals still hang around, they just left immediately without bothering to say goodbye. Especially our extremely mean Shih-tzu, Cory, who left a scar on my eyebrow when he bit my face when I was 4 >
And last but not least, dealing with the shadow man and random spirit. Oh, my gosh. I would be scared out of my wits if I saw a shadow. Usually if I see one and I DON'T know the gender or name, I get so scared because I think it's just a genderless, nameless demon or some other bad spirit that won't give me information. Those scare me the most. Like Roy used to be called "The Shadow Man" by me because I knew he was a man, I just didn't know the man until the fateful night where he gave me a message that was so strong and so sudden I couldn't shake it out of my head for 10 minutes....hehe. It's like seeing a stranger walking around your house, hiding, then learning their name and becoming comfortable around them. It's a very scary process because you have no idea who they are, but I wouldn't contact that shadow person until you are 100% sure it's safe, though. And since that was in a hospital, and there are LOTS of deaths there, you're gonna have lots of spirits there. Even more because other outsider spirits are attracted to the large amounts of energy.
And since you blocked out that spirit.....you gave me an image of a sad little bloodhound looking in through a doggy door that has a LOCK on it, lol!!! The poor guy, I bet he feels lonely, but you need to set the ground rules. I don't like blocking spirits out of my house/room, because....well, I don't know. But I don't like keeping them out. Because Roy definitely protected me, Megan keeps me company and makes me laugh, but Amanda scares the life out of me. I feel like I'm keeping my family out though if I keep them all out....and at my friend Mary's house, it's hilarious. We were talking to a spirit in her house named Johnny who has a sort of crush on Mary, and it was so funny! We were asking him all these things....I was like "Johnny, do you like Mary?"
"Yup"
"You like her body or her personality?"
"Both"
"Aw, you perv!!"
"NO!!!"
And that last answer was SO strong in my head I just laughed out loud...Mary and me got the same exact responses, so we both started laughing at the same time, so if someone else were in there who had no idea what was happening would look at us strange....hehehe.
I think a lot of spirits are very funny, though. They have strong personalities like they did when they were alive.
Aaaaand I've talked too much.
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