Help please?

[illiey12]

Well lately I've been feeling very ''down''. Its worse than that, I've been feeling depressed. Everything in my life seems to be going wrong.

First of all, I seem to be a social outcast. I am ignored by everyone apart from family and 1 true friend. As soon as I talk to people, they move away or interrupt. When it comes to getting in groups at school, I would always be left out. My friends are not true friends. Apart from one person. Maria. And she does not live in my city.

Second of all, my teacher is getting stranger and stranger every day. He keeps getting close to girls and telling them ''I adore you'' etc..(including me). At first, it seemed normal, funny in a way. Now he actually touched me inappropriately. I have told family and the principal about this, and they dont believe me, therefore they dont let me move classes.

Third of all, my grandpa has been diagnosed with lung cancer and is in hospital at the moment. They say he has 2 weeks to live, and the worst part is, I cant go visit him because he is in Russia. It hurts me terribly to think that he wont be alive anymore. I am bawling my eyes out as I type this.

And lastly, but not as importantly, the heat. Where I live (Adelaide, Australia), its been over 40C degrees(115F degrees) for the past 5 days and the weather doesnt seem to change. I cannot fall asleep and cannot concentrate because of this. The sun just burns my eyes..even with sunglasses and I STILL have to go to school everyday.

Ive also done some research today about depression, and I have most of the symptoms of a ''Mild depression''. And due to the above causes, I've been spending my life on the computer, crying 24/7, not wanting to do anything at all, and I wanna listen to only one song non-stop which is How to Save a Life by The Fray because it seems like it applies to me. Ive listened to that exactly 147 times in a row today as soon as I came home from school.

Please help, I dont want anything to get any worse..

(Sorry for my ranting )

And I HAVE told my parents about this, and they're just saying its nothing because Im usually a cheerful-random-hypo kid...and they expect that from me everyday.

~Illiey

 

[huntr rocks]

I know how you feel. People are just ignoring you, leaving you out. At lunch there is NEVER any place to sit and you are forced to sit on the crack? (<don't ask&lt Well this is what my mom says, "Go to school to learn." Which I hate being told. As for the perve teacher, I would consiter telling an administator. I'm sorry about you're grandpa, I hope all goes well. Every goes through "Mild depression" every now and then, like me this morning. Luckly I got about three text asking if I was alright and a hug by this one "nice, good" boy. I would consider putting a fan in your bedroom, I had to for a while when my Air conditioning, I felt so gheto. 8~)

Well, Your depression should clear up soon. Hope I helped. ;~)

 

[illiey12]

Thanks. That made me feel better, but I'm still very upset. I DO sleep with a fan, but it doesnt help very much. Plus mum is always afraid that a fire will start. She's paranoid :\

 

[huntr rocks]

Well you may also be depressed because of sleep anzioty (spell). I happends when you are trying to sleep with alot on your mind that is keeping you up. If you want to make some friends, you could try joining some clubs, not just at school eightier. I joined a dance class and made some friends.

 

[illiey12]

Hm...well I recently joined an acting class (had my first lesson today) and it wasn't very fun. Everyone seemed to have friends there already...and I was all alone, just like always.

 

[cluck_cluck_chicken]

Do something that makes you happy. Swimming would be nice =] My uncle lives in Adelaide and was ranting about the weather on the phone!

Seriously, you gotta get something done about that teacher. My friend was in a very similar situation. One girl ended up felt-up and disturbed. No one believed her until it happened again. Keep talking to you mum about it and say your very uncomforatble and its effecting you learning. A small white lie may get you out of that class [i can't concentrate since he disturbs me; I can't stand it now I would rather roll up under my bed then learn.]

As for the friend problem, same thing happened to me. New year, new people. I just faked a smile and hid behind a happy face until someone talked to me and we've been best friends ever since. ILY Grace!

Getting involved with a sport is good for socailising.

Hope it gets better. Your awesome as far as I can tell!

[Oh, Your awesome, people just can't accept you that rock and they don't]

 

[huntr rocks]

Well you can't just stand around, you have to start up the conversation some times. I know it can be hard when you don't know anyone or it seems like they all have their own little groups.

 

[illiey12]

@cluck_cluck_chicken: Aw, thank-you. I was planning on joining a sport and will probably join badminton this year. It seems relaxing and I'm good with rackets xD.

Yes, I am trying my hardest to get something done. Yesterday other people noticed aswell, and even though they aren't my friends, they're on my side and are telling the principal about it aswell. So hopefully I'll get moved to a different class.

And about the socialising, I love to socialise. Dont get me wrong, I am always willing to make new friends. Its the other people that bother me. They just...dont talk to me, think Im stupid etc...I dont what I'll do, but I definately will start upmore conversations and stuff. Otherwise it'll be too late...

(And you rock too. ALOT!)

 

[huntr rocks]

^^ ahh thx! I know it can be VERY hard to talk to people you have NOTHING in common with, I have to all the time. My best friend of three years just gave me a letter that pretty much said "I'm not you're friend anymore" I today found out she has a mental illness. It's sooo hard to find a real friend these days.

 

[illiey12]

^Yes, very hard. I have only 1 or 2 true friends in this world. And my family. Apart fom that, people want nothing to do with me.

 

[huntr rocks]

^EXACTLY!!!! I feel i only have a few TRUE friends and no matter how nice or how I dress, no body wants anything to do with me. It feels so bad.

 

[barky]

I know what you mean! Starting a new school - I had to sit next to one of the 'popular' people, but after we talked a lot and had some laughs, we're like best friends. You should try putting on a smile and starting conversations with people ABOUT what they like or do, because people love talking about themselves ^.^

About your Grandpa - could you call him? Try as much as you can to get in contact with him, tell him how much you love him.

And your disturbing teacher - perv much? Try to get some other evidence other then just spoken words. Film it on your phone? Record it?

I hope it all turn out well. Smile and laugh, it really does make you feel happy

Best Wishes,

barky

 

[bratztroxg]

Oh, Ksenia. :[

I’m sure you’re not a social outcast. You’re a really great, funny, nice person and definitely one of my TT friends. And you’ll always have your very best friend, despite the fact you don’t live in the same city. That doesn’t change the fact that you’ll always be best friends. All my very bestest buds live in England - thousands of miles away! But we keep in contact still, and they’ll definitely always be my BFFs.

As for your Uncle, I am so so so sorry about that. If it is at all comforting, one of my friends had a sister who has just died a couple of weeks ago from cancer. :[ It is such a hard time for her but she will always know that she is loved and missed, and has friends to rely on. I hope it can be the same for you. Best wishes go to you and all your family.

As for your teacher, he sounds like a true purv. You need to talk to your parents about this, and don’t stop until they realise how hard it is for you. I’m sure your parents have trust in you, and will soon accept the fact that your teacher has a problem and you need to switch classes. Good luck!!

I really really hope you feel better soon.

Your friend

~Esther

 

[XoX-Snowy]

I have the same problem (well the friends part). My one friend doesnt go to the same school as me because she is 2 years older than me. This all started one day when i decided to play woth my new friend instead of my best friend. She loves attention, so she got rly mad. She told my new friend, and then no one talked to me. And now my old friend and my new friend are best friends. I think another reason is because my new friends was kinda popular. Also, we found out we liked the same guy, and everyone would obviously take her side.

BTW: My old friend always steals my friend.

 

[illiey12]

Thanks everyone for your advice.

@barky: Thank-you for everything. I cant record my teacher on my phone since we're not aloud to have phones in class. And I doubt the principal will believe me since this is one of the school's most loved teachers. But anyway, thanks for your advice. And yes, I do call my grandpa everyday and we talk forhours on end, but that just makes me cry. I hear him, and in a week's time,I never will again. And I havent started a new school just yet, this is my last year of primary. But still, thanks. I do have a few fake friends, who I just hang out with just not to be alone. I do cry though, because its not very comfortable being with them. They dont notice me and hardly ever talk to me.

@bratzroxg: Wow, thank-you. Your post made me feel a whole lot better. All I can say about the friends thing, atleast I have a best friend. Someone who will always be there for me. ILY Maria <33. And about my grandpa...well you wrote uncle..but that doesnt matter. I know you still mean the same thing . Thank-you for your best wishes, and I am trying to convince my mum as well as I can to help me move. It's pretty hard to convince her, but I'll persist.

@XoX-Snowy: Thank-you for sharing that. Friends can really be an important thing for people around our age, and I'm sure one I start high school(next year), I'll make some new friends. I'll just stick with the fact, that things will pass. Everything will be OK.

Once again, thanks everyone. But is there any more advice? I'm still not feeling my best.

 

[~~Bananaz_Rock~~]

hm maybe ur sick or something eat some fruit.

 

[illiey12]

hm maybe ur sick or something eat some fruit.

I eat plenty of fruit and veggies. Thats not the point. Please explain clearer on how I could be sick. Thanks

 

[x.N e o n]

Agh, I understand. Especially about the dying-relative-cancer thing. In fact, it's a coincidence, my uncle is about to die. He has cancer, too. He has two weeks. I'm going to visit him on Saturday, next week, if he's still alive. Sad, really. I'm trying not to think about it, and so far I'm succeeding. 'Cept for this, so I'm gonna go ahead and leave this topic before I cry. I really do not wanna cry. Sorry....

 

[illiey12]

Agh, I understand. Especially about the dying-relative-cancer thing. In fact, it's a coincidence, my uncle is about to die. He has cancer, too. He has two weeks. I'm going to visit him on Saturday, next week, if he's still alive. Sad, really. I'm trying not to think about it, and so far I'm succeeding. 'Cept for this, so I'm gonna go ahead and leave this topic before I cry. I really do not wanna cry. Sorry....

Aw, I'm really sorry. Thats so sad. Thats REALLY sad. When relatives pass away, its horrible. Its probably the worst thing which can happen to me and everyone else. Anyway, there is always a chance that doctors are wrong. I really hope your uncle will be ok.

Best Wishes,

~Ksenia.

 

[TamaMaria]

Ksenia, you got help and I didn't. You are very lucky. Your life is better than mine, 'cause at least you HAVE a friend to cry on (me) but my friends are all imaginary, except you.

It's totally hot in Sydney too, and I have a REAL depression. I could die.

I know I'm not helping, but remember, you will always be my russian doll (remember the poem?).