TamaMaria
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Well, I've had multiple dreams about things I'd like and some random things, like getting a phone, meeting Robert Pattinson and other boring stuff. But I think it's getting to me in my everyday life. I mean, I'm only 11 but I'm EXTREMELY depressed. I feel like everyone hates me. I know it's not anything at all but it makes me feel awful whenever I wake up and realize that the image of me doing whatever it was that I dreamed of will never happen.
I'm not obsessed with Twilight, but I've had multiple dreams that I was a vampire. I even PRETEND to be one just to make me feel better. People tease me, even right here on TT. I don't know if it's just a stage but I'm really sad, gloomy whatever you want to call it. Even 'emo' would suit my current mood.
Another problem is that I'm obsessed with black and red. I walked into some stationery shop (Smiggle) a few days ago and all I could feel I wanted was black, black and some purple. I don't know if it has anything to do with my problems.
What's even worse is that I feel like I'm obese. I'm 152cm and I weigh 46/47kg, but I don't know if it's because I'm tall or what.
I can't tell anyone else any of this, because they won't understand me. People just laugh and say "You're obsessed with Twilight, You're not fat" and it makes me feel even worse. They even say "You gotta face the fact someday that you're NOT a vampire. Pretending you are isn't healthy". But it's MY life. They're MY choices and if there's something wrong, it's alway MY fault isn't it?
If anyone could help me put an end to my ranting, it would be ok... but I need to stop feeling bad about myself.
I'm not obsessed with Twilight, but I've had multiple dreams that I was a vampire. I even PRETEND to be one just to make me feel better. People tease me, even right here on TT. I don't know if it's just a stage but I'm really sad, gloomy whatever you want to call it. Even 'emo' would suit my current mood.
Another problem is that I'm obsessed with black and red. I walked into some stationery shop (Smiggle) a few days ago and all I could feel I wanted was black, black and some purple. I don't know if it has anything to do with my problems.
What's even worse is that I feel like I'm obese. I'm 152cm and I weigh 46/47kg, but I don't know if it's because I'm tall or what.
I can't tell anyone else any of this, because they won't understand me. People just laugh and say "You're obsessed with Twilight, You're not fat" and it makes me feel even worse. They even say "You gotta face the fact someday that you're NOT a vampire. Pretending you are isn't healthy". But it's MY life. They're MY choices and if there's something wrong, it's alway MY fault isn't it?
If anyone could help me put an end to my ranting, it would be ok... but I need to stop feeling bad about myself.