Neon Tiger.
Well-known member
I..
Well, I don't really understand it myself.
It's just, nothing ever captures my imagination.
I don't care for anything.
Not food, not games.
Not people. People are.. in the way.
I don't like sitting down,
I don't like talking.
I want to just run past all these events. Holidays. Parties.
I have friends.
I HAD friends.
But I can't help but frustrate them.
I don't understand gossip, or small talk.
I can't look people in the eye when I speak.
I don't enjoy the same, cheesy things.
It's like I just become distracted.
Because people don't fascinate me.
They're dull, somewhat useless.
My mind is captured by things like the skies, and thunderstorms, and animals, and dreams..
I've become so detatched from the human world.
I don't care for it now.
I never sleep.
It's not like I can't.
It's more like I won't.
I'm scared I'll forget.
Scared everything will start over in that same vicious cycle.
The one that's right behind me, and if I turn back for just one split second, I'm dead meat.
It's not really depression, so much as a fear of slipping back.
I think I'm crazy.
My mind processes thoughts like an animal.
I'm not kidding.
Seriously.
I HAVE A DOG'S TRAIN OF THOUGHT.
Nobody knows.
*Sigh*
Well, I don't really understand it myself.
It's just, nothing ever captures my imagination.
I don't care for anything.
Not food, not games.
Not people. People are.. in the way.
I don't like sitting down,
I don't like talking.
I want to just run past all these events. Holidays. Parties.
I have friends.
I HAD friends.
But I can't help but frustrate them.
I don't understand gossip, or small talk.
I can't look people in the eye when I speak.
I don't enjoy the same, cheesy things.
It's like I just become distracted.
Because people don't fascinate me.
They're dull, somewhat useless.
My mind is captured by things like the skies, and thunderstorms, and animals, and dreams..
I've become so detatched from the human world.
I don't care for it now.
I never sleep.
It's not like I can't.
It's more like I won't.
I'm scared I'll forget.
Scared everything will start over in that same vicious cycle.
The one that's right behind me, and if I turn back for just one split second, I'm dead meat.
It's not really depression, so much as a fear of slipping back.
I think I'm crazy.
My mind processes thoughts like an animal.
I'm not kidding.
Seriously.
I HAVE A DOG'S TRAIN OF THOUGHT.
Nobody knows.
*Sigh*