Coryn Asur
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I'm not completely sure if this counts as bullying, but anyways; I have been looked down by many people during the school years, even in the primary school. I had a bunch of good friends when I went to the first grade, but then something happened and after the second grade they started to talk behind my back and leave me alone. Gladly there was this one girl I made friends with, she has been by my side ever since. Well, regardless of our friendship, the times changed for both of us, we both got looked down on, and I'm pretty sure the cause was me. Later we got some new friends again, and started to hang out with them at school, making a group of four girls.
The seventh grade was by far the worst of them all, though - all the new people I thought I could make friends with, they all started as rather nice people, but then the tables turned again. The friends of our squad told me that the new people had already called me weird and ugly behind my back, just as I thought they would. Well, later we got a new girl to 'join' our group. She's been a part of it till around this year, but then even she started to talk behind our backs as well. It seemed like no one on the seventh grade liked us, at least they didn't like me. And they still don't.
The talking behind my back still keeps going on, draining all the trust I still have left. I always feel like no one likes me, just because I'm ugly and awkwardly quiet when the others are extroverted and outgoing. The talking behind my back also caused me severe trust issues and self-loathing that I still have.
I really hate the fact that I let the classmates break me down like this. I am a weak earthling. Very weak.
The seventh grade was by far the worst of them all, though - all the new people I thought I could make friends with, they all started as rather nice people, but then the tables turned again. The friends of our squad told me that the new people had already called me weird and ugly behind my back, just as I thought they would. Well, later we got a new girl to 'join' our group. She's been a part of it till around this year, but then even she started to talk behind our backs as well. It seemed like no one on the seventh grade liked us, at least they didn't like me. And they still don't.
The talking behind my back still keeps going on, draining all the trust I still have left. I always feel like no one likes me, just because I'm ugly and awkwardly quiet when the others are extroverted and outgoing. The talking behind my back also caused me severe trust issues and self-loathing that I still have.
I really hate the fact that I let the classmates break me down like this. I am a weak earthling. Very weak.