doggiedreams
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Okay...I have this feeling...that whatever I do...isn't good enough.
Take math for example. In Cali, I was always at the top of the class. In Texas...I feel...stupid. I still get 90s...but it is so below everyone else. My friends get 97-99 averages. And me? I have a 91. It just feels so weird...like my best isn't my best.
But this is what really gets me:
Next year I'm going to high school. I'm taking 3 out of 4 possible honors courses. My mom wanted me to take all 4, despite the fact that the counselors told us numerous times that it would be waaay too much to handle.
So, my mom asked one of her friends who lives in Cali about what classes her daughters took. Apparently, one took all 4 and the other took all 4, plus Honors Spanish. I don't know what it's like over there. Neither does my mom.
But I feel...compared. Like I'm not as good as them. I won't be as good as them. Ever. It feels...weird. It makes me sad.
I need help. But don't tell me to tell them how I feel, because I could never do that. I need a way to cope with this...just mentally. For my sake.
Take math for example. In Cali, I was always at the top of the class. In Texas...I feel...stupid. I still get 90s...but it is so below everyone else. My friends get 97-99 averages. And me? I have a 91. It just feels so weird...like my best isn't my best.
But this is what really gets me:
Next year I'm going to high school. I'm taking 3 out of 4 possible honors courses. My mom wanted me to take all 4, despite the fact that the counselors told us numerous times that it would be waaay too much to handle.
So, my mom asked one of her friends who lives in Cali about what classes her daughters took. Apparently, one took all 4 and the other took all 4, plus Honors Spanish. I don't know what it's like over there. Neither does my mom.
But I feel...compared. Like I'm not as good as them. I won't be as good as them. Ever. It feels...weird. It makes me sad.
I need help. But don't tell me to tell them how I feel, because I could never do that. I need a way to cope with this...just mentally. For my sake.