Lara_Long_Stockings
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I was digging through my memories the other day and uncovered some that I had blanked out.
I've actually had a few breakdowns at school infront of many people. Breakdowns are basically what happens when people lock up their emotions for a long time and then a certain incident will just make them erupt like a volcano. This is going to be a long post.
The first time I had one, I was 11 years old and it was the year my mum passed away. I was at a school camp and everyone had been really mean to me because we went canoeing and something happened *Cbb typing it all out* and I couldn't help my friend because I didn't know how to swim, but everyone was giving me crap about it and a teacher even announced it on the awards night... My friend got an award for what she did with the canoeing thing and the teacher was like 'And *friend* did blah blah blah while Lara (me) sat in the canoe watching her swim!!' I was SO humiliated, she ridiculed me in front of everyone and made me look like a bad person.. everyone was like 'OMG WHY DIDN'T YOU HELP HER!' and then one night, it was time for everyone to shower and get ready for bed. We were only allowed 2 minute showers because there wasn't enough hot water and guess what? I was the one who happened to be in the shower when the hot water ran out. Everyone was yelling at me, saying 'OMG I HAD TO HAVE A FREEZING COLD SHOWER' 'This person is going to KILL you!' 'Thanks alot!' and that was it. I cracked. I remember being on the bed screaming 'NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME! I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN! I WAS A MISTAKE!! I WAS A MISTAKE!!!'
It's really sad to remember actually.
Another one was my first year of high school. I was 12 years old and I'd had a really hard time because I had no proper friends. I used to cry all the time because I was always really upset and people picked on me in class, not to mention I was the target of a cruel, horrible girl. Let's call her S. It happened in Art one day. There was a textbook that we were doing work from, and S was flicking through it looking at all the pictures. There was one of a naked statue that she was laughing at, and as she kept flicking through the book and there was a particular picture that I really didn't like. It was a drawing of a woman laying on a bed with a sad little girl standing next to her. It was titled 'The dead mother and her child' and It looked like my mother and I when she had just passed away. Anyways, S noticed my reaction to the picture and purposely kept flicking back to it when she knew I was looking. I said 'I really don't like that picture, I really don't want to see it again' and she was like 'Why? It's just a grandma!' But she knew exactly why I didnt like it. She just kept showing me that picture over and over again until I cracked. I burst into tears and a guy in my class turned around and said 'Oh my god Lara, why do you always cry?!' and I was like 'YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!' He was like 'o_0' I yelled some more but I've blanked that part out.
If anyone ever asked S about what happened, She would say she was only showing me the picture of the naked statue. No-one ever believed what S put me through. There were other things she did to me besides that, and I'll never, ever forget.
Have any of you ever had a breakdown? If so, Why?
I've actually had a few breakdowns at school infront of many people. Breakdowns are basically what happens when people lock up their emotions for a long time and then a certain incident will just make them erupt like a volcano. This is going to be a long post.
The first time I had one, I was 11 years old and it was the year my mum passed away. I was at a school camp and everyone had been really mean to me because we went canoeing and something happened *Cbb typing it all out* and I couldn't help my friend because I didn't know how to swim, but everyone was giving me crap about it and a teacher even announced it on the awards night... My friend got an award for what she did with the canoeing thing and the teacher was like 'And *friend* did blah blah blah while Lara (me) sat in the canoe watching her swim!!' I was SO humiliated, she ridiculed me in front of everyone and made me look like a bad person.. everyone was like 'OMG WHY DIDN'T YOU HELP HER!' and then one night, it was time for everyone to shower and get ready for bed. We were only allowed 2 minute showers because there wasn't enough hot water and guess what? I was the one who happened to be in the shower when the hot water ran out. Everyone was yelling at me, saying 'OMG I HAD TO HAVE A FREEZING COLD SHOWER' 'This person is going to KILL you!' 'Thanks alot!' and that was it. I cracked. I remember being on the bed screaming 'NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME! I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN! I WAS A MISTAKE!! I WAS A MISTAKE!!!'
It's really sad to remember actually.
Another one was my first year of high school. I was 12 years old and I'd had a really hard time because I had no proper friends. I used to cry all the time because I was always really upset and people picked on me in class, not to mention I was the target of a cruel, horrible girl. Let's call her S. It happened in Art one day. There was a textbook that we were doing work from, and S was flicking through it looking at all the pictures. There was one of a naked statue that she was laughing at, and as she kept flicking through the book and there was a particular picture that I really didn't like. It was a drawing of a woman laying on a bed with a sad little girl standing next to her. It was titled 'The dead mother and her child' and It looked like my mother and I when she had just passed away. Anyways, S noticed my reaction to the picture and purposely kept flicking back to it when she knew I was looking. I said 'I really don't like that picture, I really don't want to see it again' and she was like 'Why? It's just a grandma!' But she knew exactly why I didnt like it. She just kept showing me that picture over and over again until I cracked. I burst into tears and a guy in my class turned around and said 'Oh my god Lara, why do you always cry?!' and I was like 'YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!' He was like 'o_0' I yelled some more but I've blanked that part out.
If anyone ever asked S about what happened, She would say she was only showing me the picture of the naked statue. No-one ever believed what S put me through. There were other things she did to me besides that, and I'll never, ever forget.
Have any of you ever had a breakdown? If so, Why?
it sucks, i'm high fuctioning, though...so i can talk like a normal person but sometimes i speak random gibberish and TV Talk...and some Pokemon talk...XD
